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How eye see

The way eye see

is rather strange

technology advances

but some methods hardly change

in order of importance

more than often rearrange

how eye look at big picture

settling for the wallet size in exchange

oh how our differences

range

what does she want?

she calls me at random

not really saying much,

sometimes she asks

how im doing

other times

not so much,

she goes

straight into

her rants

about the people she sees

and how she has a crush,

on some total random strangers

and how it gives her

such a rush,

which doesn’t surprise me at all

cause that is, pretty much,

a description of how we met

a few drinks, a few laughs, then straight to the few fucks,

she says she takes it slow

and that she doesn’t give “iT” up,

but for me that’s hard to believe 

considering the grounds that ive touched,

I tried to make it honest

so people wouldn’t make me out to be such a slut,

but in the end it didn’t matter

because she’s gone now

and apparently I was just too much, 

you’re going to believe what you believe

because people only see what they want,

I wonder why she calls to check in

if we aren’t anything and her current flings arent of my cup,

I find it hard to be interested

so I then ask her, “what else is up”,

she says “oh, well, nothing”

I have a feeling like she wanted to ask if I’m seeing any one,

but she doesn’t, that’s our conversations,…is she just bored?

I have no idea what she wants.

oops i did it again

I can’t say it enough

I did iT again,

as if after so many times

there’s something new to win,

but I can’t lie this time

I think there’s something to iT,

because even amongst the odds

iT still showed favor to me, after a bitch thought she bit,

speaking lies of me

adding on to my past,

to fresh new blood

yet you wanted to calculate her math,

giving her math equations

you your self couldn’t add,

the concept of lieing isn’t new

I see you follow with the fad,

of hating because who you’re dating

cant satisfy or deal with your loud obnoxious drunk stumbling ass,

what im saying sounds hurtful

please allow me to reframe,

it seems like where im going

im going there again,

except this time its a slightly different path

because the company accompanying isn’t at all about playing pretend,

although ive made mistakes in past

I think what started as it did before wont end like it did again,

my flesh my heart my mind my soul

cant deny what it sees and feels,

so im hoping what im hoping for

is authentic and all so real,

because at first

it felt too surreal,

but my breaking the diet with something just for my sweet tooth

turned out to be the full course satisfying meal