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awkward movement

I think

its hilarious

and interesting

just how

the world

turns,

I AM

more arrogant

than the

elephant in the room

but my blunt

slowly burns,

like the opposite

of an anorexic

cutie

who fattened up/didn’t throw up

and little by little

developed curves,

and that

confidence

shows up

at the wrong time

like

‘what balls”

‘what nerve”,

I needed strength

on that date

she needed swav

I gave her a

half assed nerd,

angry

with my self

a bitter creamy taste

self expired

and soft served,

oh well

I guess

I’ll go on

about my business

doing  the robot

as I

make my moves

 hitting these corners & curves,

hoping

to one day

I bump into  my fellow/matching

weird ass

dance around

to break the ice

type  of girl

opposites attract

I don’t

get it

I really don’t

understand,

how one

can make “love”

to someone who

doesn’t comprehend,

fates 

twist and turns

calculations

supply and demand,

two different

walks of life

one glorious beast

with two backs,

it’s of lust

so inside

im aware

that its bad,

but this a

new demon

that I’ve never

ever battled with,

I’ve never been

so deep

so lost

so intimate,

the soul

off to the side

waiting for me

to take a  stand,

to get up and leave

but this feeling

has control of me

it wrapped around the neck,

starting with kisses there

then down

to the

chest,

then the digging 

of her claws

leaving scratches

on my back,

me lifting

tossing her

rag doll esq

she wants fight she gives a slap,

only enticing me

do go even deeper

to make her

lose wind/gasp,

she likes it

she loves it

im told not to stop

because she’s about to climax,

my god

my temptress

oh my

how opposites attract

On the fence

in this modern-day

of technology

recognition can be,

 

 as loud as a tag

as discrete as someone

speaking metaphorically..

 

to be of courage

and a spiritual lover

apparently now

is so outdated,

we can’t stand for the unknown

we want only right now

and we will make a fit

as if we never have waited…

 

things are so instant

entitlements are self approved,

a kinky text at midnight

is considered todays candle light dinner for two…

 

there’s so many things

that people get a way with,

does love not deserve to be faithful

or is okay for understandings to be played with?

 

Luckily

I’m hanging out

on the side of the  fence,

I’ve been hurt before

and I’ve guarded my heart

every chance that I get…

 

Am I denying my self-love?

I don’t know, its possible…

But I’d rather have a gun pulled out in front of my eyes

then be shot with a blind fold…

Stay away

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Has my timing
Been off?
Or is the universe
Trying to tell me something?

So many times
Flash bangs go off
And The hurry says
“Nah, it’s nothing”.

Leaving nothing but
Over thinking
And soft spots
From the aggressive scrubbing.

So there must be
Something
Triggering
The unquenchable hypothetical wondering.

Do The Trick

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There’s so much that I try to process
That doesn’t totally click,
However the mind can’t grasp
If the heart for it doesn’t stick,
I want to fill:be the void
But I slip right through it like jive talk onto something slick,
Wanting to get to the center of the tootsie pop
Never took so many licks,
Never in my life have I gotten what I wanted
After not having to throw any fits,
I don’t mean to complain
It’s just mind boggling/it’s a trip,
God is certainly good
I’m just the one being a bitch,
For not looking for a permanent solution
And just Settling for a quick fix,
I’ve known for a while now
What doesn’t settle doesn’t mix,
“My heart isn’t running right
It just needs a little kick,

Will you
Do the trick?”

soon as i opened up the door

I don’t know much

but that in which i do

usually stems

from the things that you do

the things that you show

and the results that seem to prove

your but a temptation made to mess with my head

so that my heart doesn’t push my soul through

your all that I’ve known

all that I’ve loved

although I’ve encountered others

they were just momentary fun

we’ve made it through the test of time

we’ve had a pretty good run

but I’ve gotten to the point

were I’m way past done

but then some how

you grab me wanting more

and i go from the top of the skies

to the board of the floor

were I cant move at all

because your holding me right where I was torn

opening my eyes

soon as I opened up the door

what im trying not to do

 

what I aim to do

and my end result

seem to be

two different things,

what my heart wants

and my body gets

hardly ever falls

into the in between,

over the edge

way across

over the fence

it seems to lean,

scared of where

the ball will bounce

keeps me on call

scared to leave,

so like an addict

once I catch a whiff

my senses lock

and I tend to cling,

my heart goes blind

my mind rewinds

my body’s numb

and I feel not a thing,

so as if an option

I bob my head to opt in

an engagement

I have no way of controlling,

I go with the wind

slip streaming once momentum begins

not landing where I calculate

but getting where is needed

then the end