Posts Tagged ‘ being ’

Casper the…

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As I attempt
To find a difference,
I also search
For something more.

Seeking the traits
Of those, That are gone,
Like an habitual
Anxious chore.

I’m seeing
The same ol’ thing,
Further straining the eyes
That quickly sore…………..

Why do I
Miss you so,
Why do I
Find you in others?

Why do I hate iT
When I find iT
If at worst
We were lovers.

You caught the bug
Well before I
& by the time I
Caught it, it was over.

The memory of you
Is enhanced with strong drink,
Further pushing me off
Of sober………..

My eyes,
They play tricks,
Or you’re everywhere
That I AM.

You get prettier
Each time
Dragging me deeper
Into damn.

What unfinished business
Do I have,
I don’t
understand.

Lost is the ghost
That isn’t ready to leave,
The in-between of this
Slow dance /Forbidden land.

Power of Nancy

There is no

denying the truth

and sometimes depending on perception

can make that next move uncouth

we think things into existence

so before you chicken out and fly/leave the coupe

know that the car goes where you steer

and in the end you do what you want to do

if it doesn’t do any good

then what does it really prove

negative nancy doesn’t leave what she fancies

so she remains unable to break her glue

Good For Your Health

As I make it

to the third point

of the termination

letter,

only anger

towards my enemy

surfaced

and I know better,

why should I

reflect on what I can’t

change

I am no beggar,

but then the need

to push and showcase the truth

mixes my feelings

like a blender,

so this

will be

the end

of a rant,

and now

the only thing

that you will read

is my early morning chant,

which will be

on something positive

because I

don’t believe in “I can’t”,

so with

the graces

of he who shall not be named

clear me of my damned, in fact

since my leaving

opportunity

has done nothing but

fall in my lap,

as soon as I leave

my back up plan

there’s always something to do

like reconnecting with those I lost contact with in the past,

now

instead of

dragging ass

my days are moving fast,

weekend

don’t come so soon

lets enjoy the moment

and really make it last,

I’m taking

big steps

shadows

no longer used for stealth,

lost unwanted

company

like fat around the body

I’m glad to use a belt,

In this

Arizona heat

cold-blooded hearts

easily burn or melt,

so I’ve decided

to be happy

because its

good for my health

where does IT lead you?

will

this work?

will iT

not?

if i

pause

Will iT completely

stop?

can i pick iT back up?

if by chance

i

let

iT

drop.

what if iTs

all in my head

and i run out of luck

will reverse psychology

pick iT back up

from

the

top?

i hope

but what if

I

hope

not?

i know what IT is

yet

i myself

make my own

understanding

POP!

let IT flow

like wide windows and doors

fully open

dont ever

shut

because

IT

WILL

lock.

no time

to have to search for a key

just

BE

and never mind who ever

IS

not

Have fun with IT

give’em a little bit of power

and see what they do with IT,

shower them with kisses

and see how quickly it takes for them to spit,

venom on their webs

as accidentally as premeditated gets,

its so sad how true to life

the flock of feathers sticks to the prototype of bitch,

one must be in full on character

to swallow pride and experiment,

give someone your entire world

see if they trash or they recycle IT,

are lessons learned best used to teach how to avoid

or how to get even with?

i still need more information

so for now lets just have fun with IT

made up

the universe is made up
of atoms-molecules -and light

its the mixture of them all
that brings inanimate objects to life

although distracted by their reflection
ours are long gone bye and bye in the night

having to grab and feel
like words describing to those that are blind

with enough sayings to over flow many novels
some phrases are used just to rhyme

taking away what holds them true
theyre tested tightly in a fight

if two go in, its 50/50
and only one of them can come out at the end and survive

dominance must be established
right away no wasting time

NOW like a starving serpent swiping a gazelle
it couldnt be witnessed by thine eyes

so is the illusions of slight of hand
we’re taken off the point we focused on when drawing lines

your words painted the picture
your souls intent helped shape and define

yet im still lost in that grasp that you have
because i can only see what ive seen with my eyes

all these pictures of happiness rainbows and smiles
get lost in translation with others frustrations and lies

the combination and possibilities of such things
drives one to insanity with the only escape, to end life

but the after taste of iT all leaves me with a hope
that its more than just more than logical
iT’d actually be really nice

tea spoons make for needs soon

I can’t give you what you need

if that isn’t what you want,

so instead of feeding you compliments

I have to you starve you with some taunts,

figure if I push you to the left

you’ll want to go to right with your thoughts,

so instead of sketching out a straight line

I’ll just draw you in with a couple of dots,

leaving the proper amount of bread crumbs

to hopefully bring you back to the top,

of the hill where Jack and Jill

once  climbed only making their problems seem like a mountain,

just to fetch a pail of some fresh water

from this mythical magical  fountain,

that appeared to be the cure-all to cure-all

but by their unbelief they had fallen,

too much of what they needed

was at the disposal of what they never wanted…